Understands (c)

Looking around
Not really wanting to see the world
But always hearing the sounds
Of pain
Tired of hearing
Tired of seeing
I feel like I should go
Go anywhere
I can’t stay where I am
I need to go…
It’s bad when
You feel like you have to run
From the ones who care about you
It’s bad when you feel so alone
In your own family
Or friends
No one really understands
No one will ever understand
At least not my family
They will never understand that
I’m lost and can’t find my way back
They won’t understand that
I have to go and figure out who I need to be
Because I have no idea who I am
I wear a mask.
A mask that hides it all
I don’t remember the last time
I was me
When I was truly happy
When I could be the real me…
Still lost
In the world
That no one understands.