Shutting Out (c)

I’m shutting out
Shutting out the world
As I go along with this hell hole
I should be standing up for myself
But instead I fall
I can’t understand myself
Who am I?
If I even know who I am
I don’t even know if that’s the right question to ask
I can’t be living a lie
But I am
I can’t sit here and let people walk all over me
But I am
That’s why I’m shutting out the world
I’m shutting out “friends”
I’m shutting out family
I’m shutting out the world for Pete’s sake
I shouldn’t do it
But I am
Is it for my own life or is it because they don’t understand
Should I let them hurt me?
Or should I start standing?
Either way
I lose
And that’s when
I shut down